Things to say to my husband

This morning I was thinking about my husband.
I had another bad nightmare last night... but I can't remember it anymore, other than I know he was in it, and was the cause of it being a nightmare...

After the divorce is final I want to send him an email that says this:

To My Ex-Husband:

Are you happy?
Does it make you happy to ignore me? To never respond to what I write you, or to call, or anything?
Does it make you happy to pretend as though I never existed?
Did it make you happy to take away my daughter, to take away my parent's grandchild, whom they loved, cherished, and always wanted?
Did it make you happy to leave me, to abandon me, when my time of need was greatest?
DId it make you happy to spread lies and hatefulness to our family and friends?
Did it make you happy to plan and plot to leave me, when I was out of town?
Did it make you happy to avoid all conflict of any kind?
Does it make you happy to know that you treated me not as if I was your wife, but as if I was your girlfriend, who got annoying, so you got rid of me? Like a 14 year old?
Did it make you happy to delete me from your friends list, when I was still your wife?
Does it make you happy to know that you gave up? That you didn't even try? That you refused to go to even a single marriage counseling session?
Did it make you happy to lie to me, when you told me you were going to go to marriage counseling? When you told me you loved me? When you told me you'd never leave me? When you told me that we would work through anything? When you told me you'd never divorce me? When you told my father you were leaving me, but then looked me straight in the eye and told me you weren't? Did it make you happy to tell me so many lies?
Does it make you happy to know that you have no wife?
Does it make you happy to not love me?
Does it make you happy to think of me alone? Or do you just not ever even think of me?

Seriously think about the answer to every one of these questions.

If you answered No to even a single one, my next question to you is: Why did you do it then?
If it didn't make you happy, why did you do it?

Because it didn't make ME happy.
And if you think, even for one single second, that what you've done has made me happy you are wrong. You are more wrong than you have ever been in your life.

All I ever wanted from you was for you to treat me as though you loved me, you wanted me, you needed me, and your honored me and our marriage. That you put me above all others in your life, as I did for you. As you promised me you would, as I promised you I would, and as I did. As a man should do for his wife.

I never asked for you to make money, I never asked for you to do anything other than love me, and TREAT me like you love me. I provided everything for you. What did you provide to me?

Are you happy?

My guess is this:
You ARE happy. And the only thing that would make you happier is if you had Pete.
I am nothing to you. I haven't been anything to you in a very long time.
You were everything to me.
And none of this makes me happy.