lawn guy part duex

Well... the lawn guy came today.
sigh.
i am a freak :(

I talked
and talked
and talked
and talked
and basically tried to force him to be my friend.

I am psycho. :(

He probably will never speak to me again. :(

He is super dooper nice.
We talked about what we do for a living.. and movies, and music.. and video games... but then he was like he really had to go, etc etc... and i mentioned where I was going dancing, and said if he ever feels like doing something different than his normal saturday, he and his friend should stop by there, and told him that i was going dancing there tonight... and the kind of place it is (goth club) etc.
he was like... ok well see you next time (i.e. next time he mows the lawn) afterwards.

definitely not coming out tonight.

i even invited them over for grilling out, said I just got a new grill today, etc.

god I am a FREAK.

I even made fun of myself, saying OK you are scared of me now right? cuz i was talking and let him borrow a movie and asked if he ever wanted to come over to play xbox 360 with his video gaming friend (apparently he has a friend that comes over on saturdays and they have like a guys night, with video game and beer and movies...)

He said no that he wasn't scared, but probably was screaming YESSSS inside.

He seems so nice and interesting and just.. neato.

and I want to be friends :(

and i'm too much of a freak.

waaaahhh!!!!!

jesus I suck at making friends.